Do you guys ever just do something without thinking and then immediately realize you've made a mistake. I did. I slapped Jeremy in the face and it came out way more serious than I intended it to and so of course I feel really, really bad. He really hasn't talked to me since, and even though its only been about 30 hrs, it's much more than i'm used to and I miss him so much.
I learned a few things through this lesson, he may not give good hugs, like they aren't big or squishy and sometimes he pats my back like i'm someones baby but it makes me feel good and calm because they are his hugs. I came over to Chae's without him to meet the puppies and she told me something that almost made me break down in front of her.. She told me that of course he isn't going to break up with you because he's going to marry you one day. She said when she asked Jeremy if he is happy where he is (with me) and he replied that he's going to marry me and we are going to have children. This is super sappy and really shit-ily written but it made my heart so fucking much. We have our highs and lows but I always thought he gave up on us, and well, he didn't. It actually went a lot better and raw in real life but I wanted to write this out so I hopefully remember this one day. Love you Jeremy Nagahama.
